It was and it wasn't. I would never have killed so brutally, or had such an impossibly broad definition of who was a threat. I certainly would never have found myself losing track of whether I was a woman or a wood elemental.
But the ghost still went looking for anger in me, and found it. It was the pain and fury of seeing LiliS's kindness abused all over again.
I don't know what possession would have been like for you. But that's what it was like for me.
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Re: John
[blinks]
That it happened was, but that wasn't you.
Re: John
It was and it wasn't.
I would never have killed so brutally, or had such an impossibly broad definition of who was a threat.
I certainly would never have found myself losing track of whether I was a woman or a wood elemental.
But the ghost still went looking for anger in me, and found it. It was the pain and fury of seeing LiliS's kindness abused all over again.
I don't know what possession would have been like for you. But that's what it was like for me.
Re: John
You wouldn't have reacted that way . . . We weren't hurt by anyone. All of them were fine.
Re: John
If I'd actually been defending all of you—or Wednesday, before—from danger, there wouldn't be anything to regret.
But in the end, my actions were by my own hand. There is no one else to take accounting for them but me.
...Not yet.
Re: John
Whatever you want to tell yourself. See you— Whenever you turn up.
Re: John
I won't be long. I promise that much.
[ a pause, looking away ]
......Thank you for listening.
Re: John