[ It's nice, he thinks. It's not exactly familiar -- he's a city kid, through and through -- but it's more familiar than...whatever HSS got. Gods know he spent a couple of days trying to understand the mostly useless buttons and switches all over the dorm, and him wondering about why they got chairs that swivel and rotate. He goes over to a chair. ]
Will it be fine to sit here?
Will it be fine to sit here?
No, it's fine. [ He doesn't want her to go back up to the kitchen when they just came down. Eclipse settles down in a chair. ] So, uhm... [ How should he broach this... ] The letter I got said something that stung a lot.
...It asked me if I was really in the right place.
[ With the implication of 'you don't belong', as he read it. ]
[ With the implication of 'you don't belong', as he read it. ]
Mmm, it's... [ How should he put it? ]
Have you ever felt that...well, there's this group of people you like and get along with well enough, and they feel the same way towards you, but you also feel like you don't really 'fit in' with them?
Have you ever felt that...well, there's this group of people you like and get along with well enough, and they feel the same way towards you, but you also feel like you don't really 'fit in' with them?
[ Ah, he recognises that kind of smile. It's the kind of sympathetic smile people give because they can relate. ]
You've felt that way before?
You've felt that way before?
Thank you! I don't really kiss people other than my husbands usually, so there's a lot that I don't know very much about, but this was really nice.
Ah.
[ More relatable than he originally assumed, in a way. ]
...That we're not much like the other people on our units?
I...I'm not really a reckless go-getter type like some of them. Or a person with a more noble sense of purpose or desire for good in the service of other people, not really. I'm pretty sure I'm just a decent person, not a particularly good one. [ He can't really help looking down at his hand, remembering that at least twice he's had a blade in it and both times someone ended up dead. ] Even King and Mars, who are more cynical than most of us, I'm not the kind raring to duke it out like they are. Abi just wants us to be safe and happy.
And it's just...I don't know. Most of them have people from home here that they feel strongly about. But here there's no one from Wu-Jian or even the West, and I feel kind of -- half-assed [ He doesn't know how else to put it, this crass manner is the most accurate expression of it.]. Not good or well-meaning enough but not enough of a rough-and-tumble type either.
[ More relatable than he originally assumed, in a way. ]
...That we're not much like the other people on our units?
I...I'm not really a reckless go-getter type like some of them. Or a person with a more noble sense of purpose or desire for good in the service of other people, not really. I'm pretty sure I'm just a decent person, not a particularly good one. [ He can't really help looking down at his hand, remembering that at least twice he's had a blade in it and both times someone ended up dead. ] Even King and Mars, who are more cynical than most of us, I'm not the kind raring to duke it out like they are. Abi just wants us to be safe and happy.
And it's just...I don't know. Most of them have people from home here that they feel strongly about. But here there's no one from Wu-Jian or even the West, and I feel kind of -- half-assed [ He doesn't know how else to put it, this crass manner is the most accurate expression of it.]. Not good or well-meaning enough but not enough of a rough-and-tumble type either.
[ listen she was always going to lose, but she wouldn't be caught dead not trying at something she's doing, anyway, and
honestly losing's not so bad.
she sighs into the kiss and presses forward against amaranth, hand nestling in at the back of amaranth's neck, under all that long dark hair. ]
honestly losing's not so bad.
she sighs into the kiss and presses forward against amaranth, hand nestling in at the back of amaranth's neck, under all that long dark hair. ]


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